The Profound Journey Of Unconditional Forgiveness.

I once thought unconditional love was the most challenging of the four pillars of the angelic realm, as explored by Annie Conboy.

Yet, delving into unconditional forgiveness proved even more arduous. This healing journey transformed my healing process, compelling me to confront deeply buried pain, akin to pandoras box.

Over the course of the 47 years, Ive grappled with the repercussions of my past, making significant mistakes along the way. I’ve self harmed in the most darkest way possible, struggled with eating disorders such as bulimia, self sabotaged relationships. These actions stemmed from trauma, rape, and abuse from boyfriends, a narcissistic mother, and a tumultuous childhood in a conflict-ridden northern Ireland as an army pad brat.

Facing an unwanted pregnancy with a solider who abandons me led to a harrowing abortion at the age of 15 without the emotional support from my mother. This compounded my emotional burdens. Finding self-love was just the beginning. I had to embrace unconditional love, forgive my abusers, my mother, and ultimately, myself. I sought forgiveness from my ex husband and my three children for my short comings. This ongoing healing journey requires me to accept the possibility that some wounds might never fully heal.

Forgiveness meant recognizing the need to forgive, letting go of judgement, and acknowledging the interconnectedness of everyone in my life story. I learned that by first forgiving ourselves, we open the door to forgiving others. This process was not without pain. I felt anguish in my very being, but through the pain come growth. I grappled with questions: what to forgive? who to forgive? how to forgive? I felt each emotion fully before releasing it. Encountering obstacles, I had to acknowledge the absent of love allowing myself to be vulnerable, trusting that the universe would guide me. This journey often triggered my PTSD, blueing the lines of reality and trauma. But through the four pillars, I shifted my energy to a higher vibration.

Unconditional forgiveness is a journey beyond the self, requiring us to confront our deepest pain and emerge with a higher understanding. Its a path that while fraught with challenges, ultimately leads to profound healing and transformation.